I’ve been putting off blogging for the past week cuz I’m just not really sure where to go from here. I don’t even know where I’m going with my life, so what am I supposed to blog about? Then I was thinking about how writing sometimes helps me figure out where to go, so here I am. Writing. Woo hoo. And now that I have my guaranteed fan base (Les, Lauren, Tor, Em, etc) I suppose it’d be worth it to be better about updating.
So here is the update. Job=gonzo. Weird week. The economy’s bad, I realize this. Companies everywhere have been struggling. People everywhere have been getting laid off. I get it. But somehow, I just never thought it would affect Utah Valley, OrangeSoda, or ME. But now it has and my job has dissolved along with many of my co-workers, and we’re all left scrambling not really sure what to do. I will be fine, I know, but I can’t help but have concern for other people with spouses, kids, and mortgages. I’m stressed enough as it is, I can’t even imagine being in their shoes.
There is some sort of weird emotion that goes along with being laid off that I can’t really describe. Everyone is so reassuring– it’s not your fault, it’s the economy. It’s not you– it’s everybody. We’re so sorry, it was a last resort. And as much as I try to convince myself of such things, it’s hard not to wonder otherwise. And then you get all day, every day to sit around and think about it… It’s really great.
Really though I’m not a depressive wreck about it, it’s just frustrating and discouraging and mostly I just despise job hunting. At the same time though it has opened all sorts of doors and options that I’ve been putting off because I didn’t want to give up job security. Things like moving overseas, looking for jobs in other cities, and being a summer bum have all been reopened for assessment. So I suppose we shall see… maybe this could be a good thing?
I vote the Summer bum option. I wish I had that option……DANG SCHOOL!
Love,
Your guaranteed #1 Fan. You’re already in my blog newsfeed. hahaha.
#2 guaranteed fan here, just writing to tell you that this summer should be reserved for job hunting, hiking, swimming, and boating. so it’ll be a good thing. then you can save up for south korea, bum out early after 6 months, get back and get a new job, and call it good.
I want to be a part of the fan club! I’m rededicating myself to my life! Please let me in. I’ll get “I <3 Chrissy” buttons made. Everybody loves a button!
you forgot me as a part of your guaranteed fan base!! anyways, this summer is still going to be fantastic- living easy and drinking up the summer sun rays all day long (when i’m not in class…errrr) south korea? china? fiji?